Living From Alignment and Not Looking Back

For a long time, I thought being open meant saying yes.Yes to people.Yes to opportunities.Yes to situations that felt heavy but familiar.

I thought openness was a virtue that required constant availability. Emotional, energetic, physical. If I could just stretch a little more, give a little more, bend a little further, things would work out.

They did not.

What I learned instead is that openness without alignment is just self abandonment dressed up as growth.

I am open to what feels clear in my body.I am open to what brings steadiness, not anxiety.I am open to what allows me to breathe deeper, not brace harder.

And just as importantly, I am closed to what costs me myself.

Closed to dynamics that require me to shrink.

Closed to relationships that ask me to over explain my worth.Closed to cycles that leave me disconnected from my intuition.

This is not bitterness. It is discernment.

Alignment does not arrive loudly. It does not force itself through chaos. It shows up quietly, consistently, and without the need for justification.

When something is aligned, I do not have to chase it.I do not have to negotiate my boundaries.I do not have to perform a version of myself that feels slightly off.

It fits because I fit inside myself.

Closing doors is not a failure of openness. It is the refinement of it.

Every time I choose not to engage with what drains me, I create space for what nourishes me. Every time I say no to what feels misaligned, I strengthen my yes.

This is the balance. Open heart. Clear boundaries.

Receptive energy. Firm self respect.

I am not available for anything that requires me to abandon my nervous system, my values, or my sense of self.

I am deeply available for what meets me where I am, honors who I am becoming, and allows me to stay intact.

That is alignment.

And that is where I remain open.